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We knew Machine Gun Kelly went via some mental health struggles, however to listen to about such a detailed name so just lately is admittedly eye-opening.
The Bloody Valentine singer revealed in his new documentary Life In Pink that he very practically ended his personal life simply previously few months — throughout his relationship with fiancée Megan Fox. In truth, he was on the telephone along with her when he went as far as to place a shotgun barrel in his mouth.
The rocker opened up about hitting a low level one night time in July 2020 whereas mourning the dying of his father. He mentioned within the Hulu doc:
“I wouldn’t leave my room and I started getting really, really, really dark. Megan went to Bulgaria to shoot a movie and I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like, I kept getting paranoid that someone was gonna come and kill me.”
MGK defined he at all times saved a shotgun subsequent to the mattress. So on at the present time when he “just f**king snapped” the lethal weapon was proper there inside arm’s attain. He recalled how he reached out to Megan for assist — however that it didn’t assist, and he grabbed the gun:
“I called Megan. I was like, ‘You aren’t here for me.’ I’m in my room and I’m, like, freaking out on her. Dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth. And I’m yelling on the phone and like the barrel’s in my mouth. And I go to cock the shotgun and the bullet, as it comes back up, the shell just gets jammed. Megan’s like dead silent.”
What a detailed name. If it hadn’t jammed, what would he have executed?
Fortunately, it did. And that second gave him the time to comprehend “something’s not right.” So he listened when Megan and his daughter Casie gave him a form of intervention, with every telling him how they felt about what was happening along with his psychological state — apparently partially fueled by medicine. They instructed him, respectively, “‘I want to like, see you as my father’ and ‘I want to see you as my husband-to-be’”:
“And I was like, I need to kick the drugs for real this time.”
Whereas we’re glad he was able to quit the drugs — and that he appears to have hit a milestone along with his psychological well being as effectively — he did sound like he’s tied a few of his happiness to Megan. As he mentioned within the doc, she “became the sun” to him:
“That’s what helps me write those songs. ‘Cause it’s just like every fairy tale that they never told you in school … the passion between us is just otherworldly.”
Nicely, we’re pleased for them. However we do hope regardless of the excessive highs he’s feeling in his relationship he’s additionally getting assist to take care of his psychological well being, impartial of his love life. Not that the “twin flame souls” will ever break up, however simply in case, you realize, they break up.
In any case, good on MGK for opening up about all this. It’s not the simplest factor to speak about, and it’s wholesome for folks in darkish locations to listen to from others with the identical points — significantly those that appear to be within the happiest conditions.
We additionally hope issues proceed going effectively not only for his psychological well being however hers too. We’re positive that telephone name was so much to course of.
When you or somebody you realize is contemplating suicide, please contact the Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), textual content “STRENGTH” to the Disaster Textual content Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
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