TikTok star Ophelia Nichols, finest often called Mama Tot, acquired actual about some of the painful days she’s had following the sudden demise of her little one.
As we beforehand reported, the beloved social media persona has been mourning the lack of her 18-year-old son Randon Lee after he was shot and killed at a gas station in Alabama on June 24 – simply in the future earlier than his nineteenth birthday – in a drug deal gone wrong. The Prichard Police Division revealed the teenager was promoting marijuana on the time of the taking pictures, inflicting “shock on top of the grief” for Ophelia.
Ever because the deadly incident, she’s been open concerning the grieving course of together with her followers (or her Tater Tots) on the social media platform. And earlier this week, Ophelia hopped on TikTok to speak a few current go to to the seashore she went on together with her household for a “day of healing.” Alongside footage from the journey to the shore, she expressed:
“I cannot lie, the past three days have probably been the worst for me. And I’ve did everything single thing that I tell y’all I do. I find at least the joy in something every day so that I can laugh or smile, but the only thing that I have been patiently waiting to do is go and be by the water ever since my family has been through the hardest moment of our life.”
As a result of Ophelia and her kids grew up close to the water, she defined that the seashore day was supposed to assist her “feel the closest to my baby child just sitting on the sand all by myself.” She continued:
“I sat in silenced for a little while, just so that I can talk to my baby child. I know he’s listening. We had a good day today despite the rain.”
When a fan requested if Randon had given her “any signs that he’s there,” Ophelia defined in one other video posted on Thursday that one week earlier than he handed away, she discovered a bluejay feather and determined to maintain it. She ended up placing the feather within the casket together with her son. Since then, lots of her followers have additionally discovered bluejay feathers and despatched them to her to gather. The influencer even noticed one throughout her “healing” day on the seashore, recalling:
“When I walked out to the water, I was by myself, and the only thing that I see floating in the water was this feather. So I grabbed it, and I knew he was with me.”
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Regardless of the touching expertise, Ophelia tearfully shared one other heartbreaking second she mentioned within the feedback of a clip on Friday that occurs “often throughout the day.” She lamented within the video:
“So I’m in grief therapy, and I started that a few weeks ago. I’m glad I did, but my therapist told me that I need to learn to speak on things when I think it. I like my alone time, and I like to be by myself. I don’t like to tell anybody what I’m going through or what I’m feeling. … I’m going to share with y’all what I just felt. Before my baby child passed, since I’ve been on social media, I would see other people’s videos about how they lost their child. And I thought to myself, I wouldn’t know what to do, and here I am doing it just like them. I’m one of them.”
No guardian ought to need to undergo one thing as devastating as this. Our hearts proceed to exit to Ophelia and her household as they grieve the lack of Randon.